12.31.09 - 2009 Shout Outs

It's that time once again, as I give shout outs to some of the people that have definitely impacted my year in 2009. If you didn't get a long paragraph or anything, I apologize but if you feel like you have made a mark in my memory of 2009, I would like to thank you for being in my life and I wish you a happy new year.

2009 was a year with it's usual ups and downs, I enjoyed all the positive times I've had this year and grew off of the negativity towards me this year. Whether you're a homie or a hater I would like to thank you for being in my life and making me the man I am today.

I have most definitely matured and grew this year, it was a fast year with some of its hardest times, but I would love to reminisce of all the good memories I've shared with my family and friends during 2009.

A lot of accomplishments and milestones have been made during this year, but a lot of mistakes and failures have been made during 2009 also, I learned from all those mistakes and used those examples to grow into a smarter person in life.

With that said, I would like to wish EVERYBODY a happy new year. I would also like to add a very big thanks for all the people who have supported and been there for me during some of my hard times.

Let's get to it; shout outs!

• Phil Bohol - You seem to always make the list, but why would you not? I love you bro, I know we recently got into some problems and stuff but I'm glad we put that behind us and kept on moving. You're the only person I can depend on when I need advice, help, or anything. All the food you have bought for me when I was hungry, all those times you were up in the middle of the night listening to all my problems, and all those good times spent together. Almost ending our friendship was a wake up call for me bro, I cried for 3+ days straight reading that "message" sent via MySpace. It was most def. one of the hardest times during this year knowing that I have no one to lean on when I'm in need. I'm just glad we set that aside and kept going with the year. Phil, I know lately we haven't been chillin' as usual but I still appreciate EVERY single damn thing you have done for me. I will ALWAYS be there for you no matter what type of shit gets to us. You are truly a brother from another fuckin' mother my dooo. I love you breh, be easy.

• Arman Seneris - I miss you, nuff said. Come back to SLZ, we all miss you.

• Jerik Fernandez - Bro, 2009 went by so fast so much shit went flying at us. I would never thought you would start talking to Audrey. LOL. That's one of the most unexpected things to have happened this year. Thanks for all the relationship advice you have given me, it's nice to ask someone that's actually experienced. LOL. I'm still jealous of you for being Historian this year, but s'all good. I'll be taking your job next year, AIIIT? All the GOOD times we've had together bro, drunk, high, whatever. Everytime I'm with you, you seem to always make me laugh or have a great time regardless. Alright bro, have a great year and I wish you the best in 2010. Much love, JAY-F.

• Robert Alquillera - My bfflz. Haha, I'm so glad you can drive now, you have made life so much easier on me lately. LMAO. Naw, but I love you dawg. You seem to always make me have a good time regardless of what I'm going through and I appreciate that, we need more people like you to make others laugh and enjoy their time. I hope you're having a good time in Tahoe and I wish you would be getting drunk with me at my house like last year. Much love Rob, keep it lit for me.

• Brandon Smith - Homie, you're always down for whatever. Thanks for sticking with me this year and helping out when I was in need. Aside from all that gangbanging bullshit we've gotten into, I appreciate the fact that I have someone like you that has my back. Same goes for you too, once a homie, always a homie and I will always have your back. I may not show it most of the time, but we both got homies that will fuck ANYBODY up if they come through speakin' on something. Smoke me out one time breh, much love homie.

• Aaron Mai - My down ass loCCsta, gangsta, homie. I love you dude, I know some of the problems you've had this year in '09 but I can see your ass stay out of trouble lately, and keep it that way in '10. Anytime you need advice, I'm here 24/7 homie. I know lately I haven't been chillin' and shit like we did over the summer. But you always busy dawg, never have time for me anymore. =( But s'all good, you will always remain a homie to me, I got you in the future cuh, anything you need, just hit me up. I'm always here for you, and I just wanted you to know that. Keep it lit for me, locc.

• Steven Nicholl - Bro, you are one of the best dudes to vent to and ask advice, you're always there for me no matter what and you always show that you care about me and others. I appreciate it a lot. We need to chill more like we did with Rob and Kimmy over the summer, I miss those late nights with us 4. Haha, naw but foreal, thanks for all the help you've given me to make my relationship stronger and make my life a little happier day by day. Thanks bro, much love.

• Lauren DeGuzman - I can't describe how much I fuckin' love you ading, you were ALWAYS there for me. Through thick and thin, I will always be there for you, love. I'm pretty sure you're the only female I can call at 3am in the morning crying like a girl. Haha, I appreciate you for being in my life and being one of the most important people in my life. You keep me happy and never seem to disappoint. We still need to go on that wingstop date foooooool! Thanks for all the help you've given me to stay positive and the shit that keeps me out of trouble. I love you ading!
  

• Audrey Dela Cruz - I miss you, love. I don't know why we never chilled yet ever since you moved back to San Lorenzo. We need to hang out soon, I promise you that, okay? I can see that you changed a lot during the time I haven't seen you, but in a good way. You've matured and you aren't the same girl I met back in the 5th grade. I mean that in a positive way, so don't take it the wrong way! I can also see that you and Jerik have this little "thing" going on now, which is weird because you two are the most unexpected. Let me know if he puts you through trouble or bullshit, so I can break his neck for you. I still got you Audrey, and I will always remain that annoying ass little boy down the street. =)

• Cassie Senorin - It's been awhile since we've talked, I miss you a lot honestly. I don't know why I stopped talking to the person that kept me so fuckin' happy during my freshman year. I wish we can rewind time and being it back to that. I miss our friendship and you A LOT. I wish that my phone wasn't disconnected so I can text you a fat ass message like how we used to do it before, haha. I miss that, you have definitely kept me happy during my freshman year and I want "that" friendship again. A lot of things changed between me and you during these past few years but one thing hasn't changed, the fact that I missed you. Sometimes I have the urge to start talking to you again but I didn't wanna come back expecting for you to be the same person because I felt like I did the wrong thing when I stopped talking to you. Whenever I see you and Audrey around school, I feel awkward because I would be afraid I might get the wrong reaction from you or something. But you, me, and Audrey need to chill soon. Reminiscing those late ass summer nights together made me realize how much I've missed. Those 5am text messages, watching the sunset together, and all that other good shit. Well, I'm pretty sure I have a bunch more to say but I would rather tell it to you in person. Much love, Cass.

• Samantha Sin - My wonderful girlfriend, I would of never made it to the end of 2009 happy without you, thank you for being my motivation and inspiration for my future. You have kept me on track and out of trouble, love. You bring me to my highs, and you bring me to my lows. But no matter what, you will always be the last person I think about right before I go to bed, and the first person I think about it when I wake up. I hope 2010 will be a great year for the both of us. You have definitely changed me into a smarter, more loving person, and without you I am nothing but a lonely, sad man. There is not a day that goes by without me thinking about you mama. I don't know what/where I would be without you. All the arguments, late night phone calls, fat ass text messages, are the little things I love about this relationship. You may piss me off sometimes, but you are the only person I deeply love and cannot live without. We have been through a lot together and I just want to be with you forever so we can add more into out little puzzle called our relationship. I'm thankful for you because you put me on track with school, I'm thankful for you because you made me a happier and better person, I'm thankful for you because you make me stronger, I'm thankful for you because you complete me. I'm thankful for having a great, powerful, living, wonderful girlfriend in my life. There are no words and actions that describe my love for you Samantha. I love you baby, it's us against the world.
  

2009 definitely changed me as a man. I've had my shares of ups and downs, but this a great ending, and a new beginning awaits. I hope you and your family has a great year and I wish all you guys the best.

Be easy.